Lucy Frucy

What does “don’t go all girl on me” mean?? -I am a fucking girl. I’m not gonna...

Thu, 10 May 2012 18:13:30 -0400

What does “don’t go all girl on me” mean??

-I am a fucking girl. I’m not gonna act like one of your bros. Having feelings and showing emotion is not a bad thing… And neither is being a girl!

I can probably drink your friends under the table, I swear like a sailor, I like to watch sports, I’m not prissy, I don’t get all crazy, I will easily/gladly walk away if you aren’t what I want, and I can take a joke. But I am still a girl. I still wear make-up, extremely high heels, I’m not a Tomboy, I am a lover, a friend, and you will know when I am upset. Which isn’t often.

Since, when is this considered a bad thing? Being compared to a girl is not the worst insult someone can receive. If you want a guy, then you should probably just be gay. I enjoy hanging with those guys more anyways.

There is NOTHING wrong with acting like a woman, female, or “going all girl.” Especially, if that means sticking up for yourself and knowing what you deserve.

It’s amazing how you can care for someone so much and then get to a point where you realize...

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 00:48:58 -0400

It’s amazing how you can care for someone so much and then get to a point where you realize that they never truly cared about you, so you must just let it go.

About three weeks ago, I can say that I left all of my feelings I had ever felt for “M” on his front porch, never to return. These feelings of love, friendship, hurt, and utter disappointment all remain under an outdated awning on the south side. They will forever linger, but I have cut any prospective ties. I no longer need any form of attachment to him and I can finally say I never want to see him again.

Nobody should ever feel the way I felt. Nobody should ever be mislead the way I was, and nobody’s generosity should never be taken advantage of.

It’s been a long, long friendship. I did love him at one point. But, I won’t let that ruin me. No man should ever be punished for the way I was let down. If anything he should be praised, be loved like I was never hurt, be my best friend, and be oh so lucky to have me. Because honestly? I don’t give in to just anyone.

March 19, 2012 This past weekend I sat on the porch which held all of my fears. I tried the last...

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 11:02:38 -0400

March 19, 2012
This past weekend I sat on the porch which held all of my fears. I tried the last possible thing that I am willing to let myself do, to mend something that doesn’t exist anymore. Sadly, actions will forever speak louder than words. I would never walk away from him… But when he walked away from me Friday, I think I’m going to reevaluate that feeling. I saw with my own eyes everything I have ever needed to see, I met with the barrier that has torn us apart, and I left my dignity on his front porch. If I could give any one any advice: If you are unsure of something or you feel you need to let something go… You probably do. Show up unannounced and see what you should have saw a long, long, long time ago.
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I stopped at my normal rest area. The cashier looked at my card and said “Jessica?” I...

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 20:17:54 -0400

I stopped at my normal rest area. The cashier looked at my card and said “Jessica?” I said “Yes.” as I smiled and continued to ask how she was doing today. She proceeded to ask me what my middle name was and I told her. This was just a friendly conversation between two strangers.

She handed back my card and said “My daughters name was Jessica. Her middle name was named after my Mother… She killed herself last year. 20 years old. Can you believe that? I kick her butt for it every day.”

Taken back but not stunned I responded with “that is terrible and I am so sorry.” She responds “It’s hard.” disregarding the line behind me I gently said “I know how that feels to lose someone that way. It’s very hard. Stay strong and take care.”

“…. You too sweetie.”

I thought about that woman for the rest of my drive home.

endofmarch: Charles de Lint - Muse & Reverie

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endofmarch:

Charles de Lint - Muse & Reverie

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"Have you ever had that feeling—that you’d like to go to a whole different place and become a whole..."

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 20:49:55 -0500

“Have you ever had that feeling—that you’d like to go to a whole different place and become a whole different self?”

- The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami (via outcamethesun)

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"The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die."

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“The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.”

- Juliette Lewis (via voguevagabondvixen)

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"Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am, still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of..."

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“Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am, still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.”

- Sylvia Plath (via thatkindofwoman)

"Today starts a year of healing."

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“Today starts a year of healing.”

- Me